An Introverted Actress

The Dream House


The day I moved into my flat 2/4/2015
My flat was a constant mess. I loved it with all of my heart but it often looked more like a postal sorting office than a living space. I'm a very lucky lady to be in a position to tour the country with various shows and book signings but that also means I bring back hundreds of letters and sometimes gifts from very generous people across the country. I then wouldn't have the time to go through them all before heading off onto the next job which meant they'd all sit in my living room, ready to be tripped over as I dashed past to grab whatever I'd forgotten that morning. Sadly, the flat didn't only collect letters but also bad memories. Each way I turned, there was another reminder of a failed relationship. It was a gorgeous little flat but eventually I outgrew it, physically and emotionally and it was time to leave. 

I viewed several houses, two for which, I put in offers. The first offer was accepted but unfortunately, the lady who owned the house had her offer declined on a bungalow that she'd been looking at which meant she wouldn't be selling for a long time. I then moved on to a gorgeous little cottage that I absolutely adored however, when the survey came back it was FORTY-ONE pages long. The house was riddled with problems that potentially made the property structurally unsafe and it just wasn't a risk I was willing to take. Then came my dream house. From first glance, on the outside, I wasn't keen. It didn't stand out to me as anything special and I was always on the look out for houses with "character" and I just wasn't sure if this particular house had what I was looking for. Then I went inside. 

The house was built in 1978 for the couple who lived in it before me and it doesn't seem to have been decorated since. It's filled with floor to ceiling patterned wallpaper on every wall, complete with loud matching curtains and the worn carpets are drab shades of blue and green. There are cracks in the walls (but a structural survey assured me the house isn't about to collapse on my head and it's just a lack of lintels above the windows which can be fixed) and the windows are thin and rotting. Sounds like a bit of a nightmare, right? However, I fell in love with the potential. With a bit of TLC, this house could be completely unbelievable. It's big enough to one day raise a family if my life should take me in that direction and it's also within my budget. It was also a lot cheaper than the houses in the surrounding area because the owners had sadly passed away and I have a feeling the beneficiaries were happy to see it go. There is space for an office in which I could write, film videos and go through letters and it would all be contained within one working space. It could have a guest room for when Scott Paige comes to visit and even a dream bathroom, complete with a stand alone bathtub should I want it (and I do, very much, want it!). Even if it took me over a decade to raise the money to turn this house into my dream home, room by room, sobeit. As soon as I walked in, I could see my life in the house and when I walked out, my decision was made. I put my offer in around September last year and moved in on January 18th 2019. I suddenly found myself thanking my mum for teaching me how to save, save, save like a mofo. 

Bye Purple Flat!
(I do want to explicitly say now that I know how lucky and privileged I am to be able to afford a house at twenty-six. I never went to college or uni and so have no student loans to repay and I've been working  professionally since I was sixteen years old and have been saving ever since. I also lived with my parents (love them!) until the age of twenty-two and so, whilst I chipped in for bills each month, I never had to pay rent prior to moving out. I also am hugely lucky to have managed to be somewhat successful in three creative jobs that, whilst all unstable, balance each other out when one goes quiet and the income dries up. I do recognise my unique and privileged position in this regard and I don't want people to read my blogs about my life thinking "she has no idea how lucky she is!". I do know, I do recognise it and I hope that doesn't go unnoticed when I don't explicitly explain my gratitude in detail on each occasion. However, I don't want to avoid talking about certain aspects of my life and so I feel I can only speak about them as long as I explicitly let you know that I don't speak about them oblivious to the privilege they showcase. <3)

I put the emphasis on "moving in" as opposed to "moving out" because I didn't feel sad leaving the flat. At all. It may be partly because I haven't sold it and will instead be renting it out but I definitely thought I'd feel...something. I didn't think it would be quite so easy to close the door on four years of my life. Whether it was a hatred for the bad memories on the other side of the door or excitement to begin a new chapter that dulled the sadness, I don't know but either way, I'm grateful it wasn't an emotional goodbye. I've explained why I won't be doing a house tour anytime soon in a video that you can watch here but I guess another reason is because the house doesn't quite feel like it's mine yet. When I've torn up the carpets and stripped the wallpaper and replaced it with my own chosen style, I'll probably feel a little happier to loosen the boundaries...maybe. I've yet to decide but my GOD I love this house more than I can explain. I love the bones of it and what it could be one day and I'm ever so pleased it's mine.

The day I moved into my house 18/1/2019


23 comments

  1. Congratulations! I've no doubt that you'll soon be turning the house into a home!

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  2. Best of luck to you, Carrie! Hope for lots of happy memories to come!

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  3. What a gorgeous little blog post. I've said it countless times but i'm so happy for you. It's nice to watch you have a smile that reaches all the way up to your eyes.

    All the best and I hope you have the best time making your forever house your own x

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  5. The cheeriest congratulations! Look forward to hearing any of the stories you do feel happy and comfortable to share as you venture through life in your new home. Hope the future brings you all the joy in the world - you deserve it!

    I do hope any potential naysayers keep quiet though; it's a shame you feel obliged to explain yourself to them time and time again, I just wish people would realise that not every little thing warrants an explanation. Thank you Carrie, for being a bright beam of sunshine <3

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  6. I got such a lovely feeling reading this and your happiness for the house and future genuinely leaks out. I've just put an offer in on a house and will hopefully be joining you in this feeling soon! All the best, Carrie x

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  7. Congratulations Carrie!
    I'm sure it will be a home which brings an abundance of good memories Xx

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  8. This is so wonderful!
    It does sadden me sometimes that whenever something lovely happens for you there is a nasty corner of the internet ready to tear you down. They are all just trying to be taller poppies!

    You're so fantastic and deserve everything you have <3

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  9. Carrie I'm so happy you've gotten the house that you can see yourself living in for years and years to come!!
    I hope you (and Olly) both absolutely LOVE living there!!

    I'm gonna miss the purple flat but this is something you have wanted for a while now and I'm always gonna support your decisions in life!!!

    Anyways, let's hope and pray Scott is ready for a massive house tour with ALOT of details when he stays over!!!

    Byeeeeeeee - Macey xxx

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  10. Don’t let anyone make you feel like you don’t get to be really proud of what you have achieved. Yes you are privileged and lucky, but you’ve also worked really really hard and saved to have what you have. I bought my first house with my boyfriend at the age of 21 and all we heard was “OMG you’re both so lucky” and I found myself saying to people, yes we’re lucky that we found such a nice place within our budget, but we worked for it and and we earned it through working hard and saving our money where we could. No one handed you the keys to that house, you put an offer in and paid a deposit which you had earnt through hard work. You don’t have to justify being able to afford a house to anyone.

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  11. Would love to hear saving advice/ why you decided to keep and rent out the flat.

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  12. Good job young lady. Wilst I'm old enough to be your mum, you are an inspiration to me.
    I'm glad that my older teen daughter has you as a role model. She may not be a performer nor a writer, but you have taught her to be true to herself, to follow her dreams, and to work hard. Thank you!
    Best wishes from Oregon USA!
    (I wish I could see your whole house but totally understand why you need to protect yourself, don't give in to the hype. True fans will always enjoy whatever you are willing to share.)

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  13. Congrats! It such a shame people make you feel like you have to justify buying a home at 26. I follow you on insta I see you there working hard what is ppls problem! Hope you can get it the way you want it very soon and enjoy many HAPPY years in your home.

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  14. Congratulations! It's not entirely clear why you should explain your earnings to a bunch of strangers (even if they are loyal strangers, hah), but I guess the position of a media person makes you, though I still think it's a bit unfair. If you or (any person) work and earn legally you can make pyramids out of champagne bottles and shoot them as far as I'm concerned.

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  15. This is just Joyful, beautifully written. I was pregnant with my second child when my husband and I were looking for our forever home, I walked into the house and just saw the potential and a warm fuzzy feeling I can't fully explain. I revel in other people's joy. The word is a better place when we lift each up. Be happy Carrie

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  16. I bought a house in September last year, and know the exact feeling. I'd seen another house which in theory had ticked all the boxes, but I didn't feel anything for. When I saw this one online, I felt excited and couldn't even say why! I'm aware that I'm lucky to be in a position to have my own place at 24 but like you, I worked super hard to get it! Much love always, and I hope it works out to be everything you wish it to be! X

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  17. Congratulations Carrie!! Such an amazing achievement and an inspiration, I'm 20 and am going to start saving now �� Xxx

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  18. I don't think you are lucky Carrie and I don't think you should have to apologise for it - you've worked bloody hard! 'luck' wouldn't have got you where you are today. Opportunities arise but it's the hard work of the individual to take them. We put a lot of things to 'luck' in this day and age and sometimes it completely takes away from the work people do. If you feel lucky that's fantastic, but you shouldn't feel like you have to disclaim it! (Also beautiful house, so happy for you!)

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  19. I wouldn’t say it’s luck you can do this. You have worked hard for your money! I think people create there own luck to an extent and you have taken every opportunity you have been given by the horns! Good luck with the decorating! After seeing this I’m going to consult a mortgage advisor this year to see how far off I am at getting a house! Xx

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  20. I have watched every one of your videos, how did I NOT know the purple flat had green carpet? I cant wait to hear what your new house turns into <3

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  21. Very happy for you!!!! :) May you make many new memories in your new home!!!

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  22. This post fills my heart with joy! it's amazing to see how well you have done and the journey your life has taken. I know social media only ever shows us a glimpse into someone's life and i wouldn't for a second say you don't have bad days or bad times in your life. But your posts always seem genuine and from your heart which makes me love reading them even more!

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